Monday, April 25, 2005
so fan..!! how 2 solve dis prob of mine? haix..i hope everyting on fri goes well..i planning to talk tings out wif my parents wif him..tell them we r serious..we wun let us affect our studies de..sigh but will tt change anyting? i so vexed wif my mum..yes i noe wat im doin is wrong..n tt sometimes i dun c fr her point of view..but den again..did she c fr my point of view? sigh..mayb cos she doesn't noe mi n him 2gether so long le..n tt it didnt affect my studies..i reali hope my parents will gif him a chance 2 prove 2 every1..n gif us a chance 2 prove it 2 all..
mummy..if u gt anyting 2 say..say it 2 my face..dun say it behind mi..or try 2 hide it fr mi..it doesn't help..it onli make matters more worst..i noe im not tt girl u used 2 noe le..im sorry..but ppl change..2 u i may haf change 4 e worst..but i can tell u..its not cos of him..im tired of being ur guai girl..im a human..i wan freedom..im tired of feeling caged up..do u noe how it make mi feel 2 not noe sth which every1 noes abt? i wanna learn..dun u c how indecisive i am..cos eveyting u all spoon feed mi..n im not indepent..im scared of dis scared of tt..e other part of mi so wanna burst out..!! im startin to b an adult le..plx..i noe u r afraid i turn bad..my studies fall..but studies is not onli abt studyin everyday..i noe muz revise..i will..plx gif mi ur trust..n gif him ur trust..gif us both a chance 2 prove 2 every1..including u..i believe we can do it..he is not as bad as u tink..he is tryin 2 change le..n i noe u r upset i treat u so cold..but im tired of hearin u repeatin wat u say..i dun wan us 2 b like tt..i envy my frdx hu is so close wif their mum..go shopping..chat talk abt everyting..even their mum tell them abt their love life..i reali veri sad we r like tt..so plx gif us a chance..n gif mi n him a chance..thank you..
wah..like letter wrting to my mum..haha..sigh..if onli i can tell her all dis..mayb fri..GOD plx gif mi e strenght n courage 2 talk tings out wif my parents..i hope tings will work out soon..cos im tired of being stuck in e middle..im sure he oso.. baby thx 4 waitin..thx 4 stayin by my side..I WILL ALWAYS LOVE U..NO MATTER WAT..I PROMISE YOU.. i miss u loads loadx..hee..
thinking of you @ 3:05 PM